Why not us?
Updated: Mar 12, 2018
As we tell people what we are doing there are two questions/comments that stand far above the rest that we are hearing on repeat:
The first; "where are you going first?" - Ya'll, when we know . . . you'll know! Haha! The possibilities seem endless at this point even though we are possibly as short as 3 weeks away from embarking on this adventure.
The Second; "I really wish I could do that," or "That's my dream too!"
The thing is, this wasn't our dream. This was something we thought sounded cool but never imagined would work for ourselves, but it ended up an option because we made it an option.
No lie, this has been one of the hardest & faith testing decisions I have ever made, personally. I'm not saying this to gain anything, I'm saying this because there comes a time in your life where you have to say, "Why not me?!" This has been coming up a lot in my life recently. In fact a close friend called me yesterday and affirmed this exact thing. Why do we believe we can't? What's holding us back? For me, it's usually fear or the idea of getting out of my comfort zone, but how many successful people have you heard say, "I really harnessed my fear and held onto it. I made sure I stayed in my comfort zone & eventually I found myself achieving all my dreams and goals!" Hahahahaha! I mean seriously though?!
There are so many things I still want to do. If you know me well enough you know that I've done a lot & my resume is so broad that it almost doesn't make sense, ok actually it doesn't make sense, I have to leave things out so that it does make sense. I have a BA in Photojournalism, 2 AAS in Backcountry Horsemanship & Equine Healthcare and complimentary therapies (yes, i'm certified to both massage and use acupressure on horses), a certificate in chainsaw operation & I may have pushed a few of your planes into the taxiway at DIA . . . and that's just to name a few . . .
I still want to work with horses, I want to go sea kayaking at Cape Flattery, I want to raise our kids (check), I want to make a difference in people's lives, I want to be an amazing example of a flawed girl who loves like Jesus, I want to encourage & empower others! These are big things, but WHY NOT ME?! This adventure is more than a vacation. This is our calling to water our family, our marriage & finally free ourselves (#livefree #redrockschurch) from the bondage that keeps us from our calling & purpose in life. Tyler & I both know that something big is going to come from this journey, but we have no clue what that might be!
This leap of faith is going to be amazing, no doubt. However, this is also going to be extremely difficult & has been. As the time nears my heart breaks for leaving Colorado & what I've built here the last 12 years - how much I've grown (I'm not leaving the same person). I was called here repetitively until I listened . . . I never thought I'd be called to leave. In the last month we've had to keep paddling upstream toward this goal. I (we) have lost our pup, Maverick, just a few short weeks ago. We've had to jump hurdle after hurdle from negative comments to fails causing doubt and fear. We've had a few "close calls" with our safety. We've had issues come up with the sale of our house. We've been turned against each other & pointed fingers in blame. We've been so busy the kids have been neglected & bored causing them to act out & create difficult situations & showed our flaws as parents. Life since we made this decision hasn't been easy - but that's how we know that God's hand is in this. Friends, when the enemy is after you, it's because he doesn't like what you're doing! Whoo! I mean YES! Right?! There is a lot of joy & peace in that, which may sound crazy to some, but it's real! Its' the truth & that's what this blog is going to be. It's going to be real, raw & awesome! I encourage you to comment - we want to hear from you! Thank you so much for following us & you're welcome to share our adventure because we can't wait to share our adventure with you!